i need . . .

i saw this on someone else's blog
go to google and type in your name followed by needs ie. elizabeth needs
this is what i was told i was needed by the people at google

1. Elizabeth needs to stick around, and be featured a bit more. ... Elizabeth needs to blog more often because she is smart and funny
2. Elizabeth Needs Protection
3. Elizabeth Needs The Fashion Police!
4. 'Elizabeth' needs loving
5. Elizabeth needs to be able to express her feelings to someone she trusts

now you try

it's coming to an end

Two more weeks and i will be done with classes! woohoo! so excited. then it's freshwind. more excitement. then i have 3 exams and one final paper. no excitement. and then beginning april 17 summer! i think this is the earliest i've ever had a summer break start. four and a half months of unbridled freedom from school!

my heart's desire

"if i find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that i was made for another world" C.S. Lewis
sometimes i have such a deep indescribable longing for love. to be loved and to know love. it is so strong it hurts, it makes me cry. i'm realizing that this is from God. my God who loves me so much is placing a deep deep desire in me to love him and be loved by him. this longing can only be quenched by his love for me. for this i am grateful because it forces me to come to him and be loved. i'm so thankful that only he can satisfy the deep longing that is within my heart. thank you Jesus, for loving me so much, that you call me to yourself, thank you that it hurts because it causes me to come to you. thank you for your intensity and passion to seek me. thank you that you want relationship with me, to be my lover, thank you for providing a way, for setting me right with God, thank you, thank you, i love you. thank you for wanting intimacy with me. i am in awe of you and your desire for me. thank you for choosing me. i surrender to you once again.

heart hurts

my heart hurts right now. not in a bad way but in a melancholy-confusing-love way. does that make sense? i don't know what is going on. i would like some answers, God. why does my heart feel this way? what are you teaching me? daddy (God) i would like some clarity.